who am i?
Who am I?
I'm Armie. may sound like army but spelled differently.
Things I'm into? well.. a lot.
To start things off, I'm an architecture student in one of the prestigious universities here in the philippines. i work a lot and play a lot. being in my field can be tough but rewarding if you like what you are doing but it may be tiring most of the time. Music is my passion. It is deeply rooted into me since i draw most of my insipirations from it. Though I may have a band before, i did not take it seriously since i was young back then, many things have changed since I entered college. I love sports but i don't know if sports love me. LOL. One more thing, I'm also a member of a sorority. The concept of sorority may be different from different walks of life but I am very glad to be part of the supreme sorority. About my family? I'm eldest of the three children, and i still live with them and my parents. the cliche type of family, mom and dad goes to work and the three of us is still studying. Nothing really excited about it.
Well, I don't even know why i started blogging just right now. I just felt the sudden urge of typing and sharinf some things about me. Because as a i kid, i never kept diary. Maybe I did have one but got lost after a day or two or I just left it behind somewhere. I'm more of a listener rather than the speaker, this may be one of the factors of not having an outlet to pour out what I'm thinking. I just realized that I need one, so I started this. As a kid, I started out very lonely and felt really alone. I'm bullied by my classmates and even blamed for the things that i did not do. I tried to speak out but nobody listens. So this may be one of the reasons why I consider to listen rather than to be listened to. I tried to make friends but I cannot find the real good ones until i went to high school and found my barkada, they are still my friends up to now but we have less communication than before because each of us have our own set of commitments. A lot has changed when I started college. I sunddenly transformed to the shy-innocent-bullied-by-anyone type into someone that is outgoing, happy lucky type of person and instead of being bullied I was the one who is bullying others but my being more of a listener still remained. I discovered and experienced a lot of things. One good thing that happened to me is that I met my loved one Januel. Things may be rough at first but we our relationship still continue to prosper up to now. It's true that life may be unfair sometimes but who am I to complain? I started to dislike my father. Though we may be in good terms as of this moment but there are things that i don't really like about him like being a drunkyard. I got suspended from school for something that I did not do and it was my aunt's fault because she begged for me to be suspended. I lost a year of my precious student life because of her.
While suspended, i started working in a contact center along with my boyfriend Januel. I like the fact that I'm making money by myself and not asking for my parents' support at least I know I have a place on earth. Being in the contact industry means graveyard shift. Things went crazy and I got involved with my trainer while I'm with my boyfriend and that is one of the worst things i ever done in my entire life. I did the best I can do, got perfect attendace and best possible grades a trainee should have to be a regular employee but it's not enough. I was denied after training for a reason I don't know. I know I was fit for the job, i'm better than the ones they hired but they did not want me. I tried my luck in another contact center and I was able to land a job there. I love what I'm doing but it turn out to be a big mistake after all. My collegues who became my friends are not as good as I can think off. I got involved with another employee within my so called circle of friends. Januel was really mad about this, even from the start he warned me what life I will have when i enter this kind of industry but I did not listen. With another uncommitted relationship, I decided to brake up with Januel and continue what I was doing. I got drunk everyday after shift. I feel I have everything ny that time but I knew I was wrong but i kept insisting to myself that i'm right because i'm happy. Then came a time that everything turned down against me. I felt hopeless so i tried getting into drugs. I was lucky not to be an addict due to my family's support and Januel. That made me realize that I was really lucky because God gave him to me. He forgave me for all the things that I have done and had a new start. I got medication and consultation from a professional to fight the hopelessness I am having. After a few months, everything went back to normal, i came back to school.
THIS IS THE START OF OUR LIFE.
My life with Januel has never been happy like this. We're going to be parents. I'm almost 6 months pregant. This is the reason why i named my blog the best thing in my life is yet to come. Things may be hard on both of us but we struggled and God gave us this wonderful gift. A blessing I may consider and I want to share this journey to each and every one since I'm going to be a MOM!
